A Painfully True Secret.

Demons hurt me,

Inside and out.

Told me I was worthless,

Unloved.

Slammed my head into the door,

The Wall.

Nearly broke my fingers in the sliding glass exit.

Held me by my throat,

Screaming hateful words.

Family trying to help,

Only led the demon to beat the shit out of him, too.

Tears became my enemy.

If they were seen,

They were a sign of weakness,

Causing him only to hit harder.

I taught myself not to cry a physical pain.

Emotional pain was another story…

Pain.

I just wanted to die,

To disappear,

For it all to go away.

The scars still linger.

Pain was the only way,

To know it wasn’t a nightmare…